I woke up to joy today

But I didn’t know it was there

Mostly I was tired

Mostly I didn’t care.

But mostly’s not everything

its only 95%.

The other little piece

is where my money’s spent.

This is what I want to build

this small and potent 5%

I’m finished willing it to happen

Now I’m choosing to invent.

Inventing joy internally

uncovering the reasons

building the solitary mechanism

that’s been dormant for all these seasons.