Can you believe this shit! I can't Can you believe these people! The thieves and liars and tyrants and crooks You're not one of them, are you? Are you one of them? Is this your fault? This is your fault! YOU! YOU! -Pause- Adults look up and inhale deeply, perhaps the mistake is realized perhaps … Continue reading The Kids Table
I can be like the river I am like the river I have that available to me But who wants to be a river When you can be right? Certainly not me. We've had to make ourselves so small So we can understand what is not understandable. Zoom in. Zoom in. Zoom in. Smaller, smaller, … Continue reading What if I’m right
And even as he wonders if that is all there is He knows it can't be true because he is alive.
I didn't want to have any regrets So I tried as hard as I ever had And then, when I achieved the goal I set out to achieve I quit.
Break it down Corporation shoveling money into themselves and what? It dissolves? Give me some of that money but not as much as you I don't need as much as you I'm better then you Give me some of that money I don't need as much as you I don't know where it comes from … Continue reading True Greed
I am the biggest victim. I am the one who is reactive to life, who thinks I am only a cog in a wheel ground into reaction forced into activity. I am the biggest victim. And I don't want anyone to know. Sorry. But I am the biggest victim. I feel like I … Continue reading Originally Mine
23 years later I recognize I can put that weight down. I recognize that there was no "Panic Attack". Instead there WAS an explosion of perception, an explosion of emotions, an explosion of thoughts.
I never saw it coming. I turned cold and sick. The avalanche, rumbling death, growing. The rumbling, growing death. When the earth shakes, there is nowhere to hide and nothing is safe. When your home shakes, you can find stronger land. When the land shakes, there is nothing to find. I didn't know my beliefs … Continue reading Panic Attack-The Earthquake 1
Where did this enemy come from and why is here here, with me and what does he want and how can I stop him? He was unstoppable. And so I began the process of changing my life of bending my life of sacrificing my life of giving my life of accomodating my life of fearing … Continue reading Panic Attack-The Earthquake 2
When it first happened to me, I spent the night frozen, praying that I would wake up and all would be forgotten. That I would not kill. Killing had never been an option. Death had never been an option. The horrors in my mind had never been an option. I had never known the horrors … Continue reading Panic Attack-The Betrayer
When it first happened to me, the Gift, I didn't see it that way No, not at all. When it first happened to me, I imagined killing all I loved with a knife. When it first happened to me, I knew. I knew. I knew. If I moved my body I would surely fullfill the … Continue reading Panic Attack-When It First Happened
I felt death, again but this time there was no doubt no confusion. Only last breath knowledge, fleeting and consuming, vast when the body rebels after the air has stopped and you finally understand the finity of your mind you get it, that your thoughts will end your program will crash and everything you know … Continue reading Panic Attack – The Unnecessary Nightmare